I was born to a Catholic family in Lansing, Michigan. I didn’t know what God’s plan was, but I was always trying to find it. The only Sisters that I saw were in movies, so it was a big jump to think about being one.
One day I got advice to slow down, so I started to spend more time praying. Over time, I felt set apart for God only. I found a spiritual director, and he told me about the Servants of the Cross. First, I decided to do the virtual come and see, and that’s when I learned about Fr. Bob Bedard, CC (spiritual father of the Servants and Founder of the Companions of the Cross) for the first time.
My first visit to the Servants of the Cross was a very quiet time of the year. It was Holy Week, and I couldn’t get comfortable. I remember sitting at the dining room table and looking up at Fr. Bob’s large portrait on the wall. I had so many questions about him. A Sister entered the room, I thought, ‘This is my opportunity to find out more.’ I pointed to the portrait and said, “So, that’s Fr. Bob.” and I nodded my head. She said, “Yeah, his eyes follow me around the room.” I decided he was a suspicious character. Then my time in Ottawa was up, and I went back home.
At home, I explored different communities. I was looking for one where I felt comfortable. Every community I visited used written prayers to pray for each other and the people they were trying to help. I knew I could only be a Sister if I had the freedom to pray with people. I did not feel a calling to visit the Servants again, but slowly, I felt was gnawing at my soul to return.
My second visit was in October of 2024. I felt more comfortable, and a source of that comfort came from Fr. Bob. I asked him to pray for me, and in turn I felt a deep love from him, like he was praying for me all along. I saw the Sisters pray without fear over people, with people, for people and each other. It was beautiful because I could see they are contract workers for the eternal Holy Spirit.
Feeling a friendship with Fr. Bob and seeing how the Servants prayed gave me the confidence to apply to the Community. I love God’s perfect unfolding plan.
